harmonize humanity

       After graduating highschool,  I left my hometown of Brantford, Ontario, Canada to spend my time frolicking around Asia, Europe, the U.K., Toronto, Montreal and New York, modelling bikinis, runway, fast fashion, high fashion, and backpacking & hitchhiking in between. 

It was a great time. 

I was turned on to life, meeting new people, laughing a lot, dealing with the regular struggles of love and war that anyone in their late teens, early 20s deals with.  

Then, when 21 hit, there was a little voice inside of me that began to grow louder. I began to question a lot of things. 

The first thing was that there seemed to be a missing piece in the issue of climate change. Whenever the topic was brought up, it made me feel massive amounts of fear, sadness and overwhelm, and I felt completely powerless. I wanted to shake everyone and tell everyone to wake up, cause our house was burning.  

I cried for the earth, often.  

Still, I sensed that there was something more. So, I began to ask questions. 

       I started to meditate. I began to get answers. I started to learn about the shift in consciousness that’s happening on the planet. I started to understand that earth is a living being, who decided to incarnate into a planet, to be a living library of all information. I started to understand that the reason we fucked up our planet is not because we are evil, but because we became disconnected from spirit & we forgot that we are a part of this web of life where whatever one being does affects all other beings. 

I was onto something. The phrase,

“We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them." 

by our boy, Albert Einstein, became a compass.

       I put two and two together: So in order to solve climate change, we have to change our way of thinking. We'd have to think in ways we've never thought before in all of human history. That means we have to come to new awarenesses.

Then came the question “So how do we come to new awareness?”I began to learn about frequency and vibration, and how we can raise our vibration to come to new awarenesses, and to think in ways never thought before. I noticed that when I would be in a high vibration, things that I thought of would appear in my reality. I started playing with this new-found super power - manifesting little things like snack, clothing, and furniture, then places to live, to opportunities like playing at festivals …

Though, I was finding that some things, no matter how much I tried to manifest them, it just wouldn’t work. That led me to discover what childhood trauma, and ancestral trauma were, and how they keep us from manifesting our desires, and keep us living in the same loops, for years, or lifetimes if we don’t get to the bottom of them.

       So I discovered shadow work, to process that trauma, and began to understand how light is information, and dark is lack of information. 

I understood that humanity had been living in the dark - in lack of information, which is why we created the mess we have. And that in order to bring more light to the planet, we needed to individually look at our dark parts - the parts we refused to see. I discovered how much *NOT* fun shadow work was. It opened up old wounds, and that was painful. But it led to the deepest liberation I had experienced in my life. Some people didn’t understand that.       With new space cleared in my being from shadow work, I began to be able to receive more light. I began to open my ancient eyes, and learn about earth’s history, from the moment it was conceived - and began to realize that what they taught us in school was barely a crumb in the whole pie.  I learned about the Akashic Records - the source that held all information since the beginning of time, including detailed descriptions of humanity’s fall from our original state, and how we’ve been living with blinders on, our DNA manipulated and unplugged, for millennia.  

       I started to discover that humans are not the only species in our universe, and I began to learn about the Pleiadians, Arcturians, Faeries, Hathors, Reptilians; about germ warfare, free will vs. the divine path, space wars… you name it.  I began to learn about how the voice could be used to alter consciousness, and to call in light. I experienced transcendental singing experiences, and ways to use the voice that showed me that there was more to singing than what I had been taught throughout my life. 

I learned that movies like The Matrix, Star Wars, and Avatar were closer to fact than fiction. 

       My awareness grew to such an extent, that I began to receive dreams and downloads, that would guide me on the right path, which meant letting go of most of what I knew, including the career as a model I had known since I was 15. It was a career that was not only a career, but an identity - in which I was safe, secure, and well-liked by society. I resisted the change. I feared being cast out of a world I had built a home in. I didn't want to acknowledge how I was harming the planet; perpetuating the consumerist industry by being the poster child for it. I felt like a traitor if I was to leave something that had brought so many incredible (and some not-so-incredible) experiences & people into my life. I tried to ignore spirit's guidance, until my body spoke louder than my unwillingness to change, and I literally could not take a physical step without being in excruciating pain in my sacral, the creativity center of my body.
 
... Because I was stepping down wrong path.

I was not using my creativity to honour my gifts and to honour all of life on planet earth. 

Earth Prayer

       Despite people around me thinking that I was crazy, and surely making a mistake, I finally let it go. I bounced around in odd jobs for a while, finding my bearings - nothing that was inspiring to me - stuff to pay the minimum of bills I had to pay, while so desperately wanting to find why I incarnated on earth. It was a challenge to fully let my old life go. I came very close to relapsing a few times, and did once, which ended in my face plastered on a billboard in Times Square, with the telling Scunci tagline,

'u got this' 

sending me on my way into the unknown. 

The contrast of when I was off  the path became increasingly more un-ignorable.  I kept being called by my voice and when I would follow, it would bring me onto the divine path - without fail - whether I would fall off it for days, weeks or months at a time.  Despite feeling like I didn't really have a voice, and that people valued my image over what I had to say, my perceptions began to change. I discovered more about how to tap into it’s power to clear my vessel, to bring light, and to understand why I’m here, though I was still afraid of judgement from others if I ever were to share my understandings. 

       Though inevitably, my new discoveries brought a shedding of skin. As I shed an identity, I shed relationships. New characters came into my life. I experienced toxicity in relationship, because I didn’t yet know myself, or have the tools to speak & honour my intuitions. I became aware of all the ways I was giving my power away. 

I experienced what it’s like to be manipulated, and to manipulate. I experienced what it’s like to be triggered, and to trigger. To be activated, and to activate. 

       I learned that being at war, or in avoidance in any relation perpetuates the consciousness of world war, and if I wanted to practice what I preached, as a ‘peace & love’ kind of gal, I was gonna have to confront a lot of uncomfortable things in my relationships, that were previously unconscious to me.  I lost some friends, spent a lot of time isolated on my own, and slowly gained others. I began to know myself. 

       All the pieces started clicking into place - I understood that climate change was less about the earth, and more about HUMANS - the beings who created it.  And that the way to combat it is for humans to grow enough awareness to stop being at war with one another, thus, making decisions that don't perpetuate disconnect from the interconnectedness of all things.  To remember that this planet is not ours - we are merely passing by, on our long journey of evolution. Otherwise, we are going at it from the same level of consciousness that created it in the first place. I learned that since earth is a living being, and has made a contract to never be destroyed, it was our own problem that we were destroying our home. Not the earth’s. She would be fine… despite the suffering she is going through.  

Us on the other hand - our fait is in our own hands. Though just as we are capable of chaos and destruction, we are equally capable of nurturance and compassionate creation.

I learned that the climate solutions are here. They have existed for a long time. Our work is to raise the frequency of human consciousness, so that the solutions are seen, funded & implemented by us, the people, instead of being hidden in order to sustain the systems in place... Instead of giving away our power to those who we expect will fix it for us. Because you can't hide something from a human who's ancient eyes have been opened. And more and more ancient eyes are being opened on planet earth, at a faster rate than ever before.

       I learned that it's about joining the masculine and feminine within - the head and the heart, intelligence and love, technology and intuition, innovation and wisdom. One without the other creates disharmony.  The role of the voice in this became more and more evident - it was the midway point between the head and the heart. It was the missing link. 

       I would not be who I am, had I not asked so many questions, and discovered the power of the voice to call in light though sound, to build bridges, to create boundaries, and to heal.  I would not have been able to transform all of my experiences into wisdom, had I not seen them all, and all the characters in my story - as soul teachers. 

       I remember when people would write about their awakenings, and I wished I could be one of those wise people. But little did I know: awakening comes at a cost. It comes at the cost of who you were. It comes at the cost of friendships and relationships that aren't meant to evolve with you. It comes at the cost of others questioning your sanity, and your mental health. And the best part? Just when you think you’ve figured it out, you are thrown in for the next level. Awakening is not get-it-done-and-over-with kind of deal. It is a lifelong journey. I'm just getting started.

       Would I rather live a ‘normal’ life, blissfully unaware, turning a blind eye towards what lies below the surface? Not a chance. That’s not what I’m here for. 

We can’t go around, we can’t go under. We can’t go over. We must go through. 

We were born for this.